There are so many people who battle with mental health disorders such as depression. A lot of people are afraid of telling their story because they feel like they're not heard, may be misunderstood or they'll be looked at differently. I had two people who reached out to me and were willing to tell their story.
Joi's meaning of Depression:
Depression to me is something that tries to define you mentally. It's being confined in your own mind with no possible escape. It's something that takes sheer.
Depression has effected my life in different ways some worse than others. It has caused people to walk away from me and sometimes I seclude myself to the point where I lose communication with people I’d normally talk to everyday. Depression has almost made me lose my current relationship because I would be at a point where I didn’t even want my fiance around me and I couldn’t tell him why because I didn’t know why. But for the ones that have stuck around and tried to understand it, it has made our bond stronger.
Joi's history with Depression:
Depression isn’t my only mental health issue, I also suffer from bipolar disorder and anxiety so all three of those tie in together. I’ve honestly been battling with it for a long time though but it became more apparent back in 2011. I had experienced a death in my family and so I guess I just never really got over. When it comes to my depression and other mental health issues it really just comes at any given moment. I can really be in a great space around nothing but laughter and then out of the blue it hits me for no reason. I’ve learned to accept my flaws and deal with them accordingly
Coping with Depression:
Honestly I have no answer for this question because I have yet to find a way to cope. I don’t talk about it a lot but when I do it’s with my close friends and fiance so that’s how I cope.
I’ve found things to help me get my mind off of it for the time being. I usually set my alarm for 9:30 AM, I wake up at the same time every morning and make myself get up because if not I’ll just lay In bed and think none stop. Sometimes I play music when I start feeling the symptoms of my depression kicking in and not depressing music that’ll just make me even more depressed. I love playing with my dog Paint or any other thing that will help me have a positive mind.
Message to people battling with Depression:
Never give up when you feel like you’re at your limit, muscle up the strength to keep going. If you’re battling with depression and you wake up everyday and continue to put your best foot forward you’re amazing! If you’re having a bad day and feel like noting is going to get better, trust in God that it will! Lastly, if anybody has not told you that they love you and you matter I am here to tell you I love you and you matter! Keep pushing its light at the end of the tunnel.
Message to people who don't understand people who are battling with the illness:
Honestly if you’re someone that makes depression a mockery I would say to educate yourself. Because a comment made by an uneducated person that doesn't battle with it, nor understands the issue can make a person jump off the ledge they’ve been contemplating for awhile. I would say ignorance should never be leading your life it only takes a search and a click to get insight on depression or any mental health issue, educate yourself because it could easily be you or someone you love but I pray that it never will be because some people can’t strap the shoes and walk the miles with mental health.
A few weeks ago some comments were made pertaining to my depression. I became so consumed with anger and I went on a rant (which was later deleted). I've been deeper in my depression because of it, not because of what was said was true.But because it was said for no reason and to be spiteful. Other people had seen the comment that was made and reached out to me following the post. Not only did they give me encouraging words but they also wanted to collaborate and tell their story. I felt like this was the perfect opportunity to not only heal myself but to also give others who deal with the same thing some relief by TALKING ABOUT IT and taking pictures of them, so they can have the strength to get out of bed and do something! I forgive the person that said it because it's not worth holding a grudge over. However, this has taught me that some people say certain things out of anger and to get a reaction out of people. This comes from lack of understanding, education and experience when it comes to certain situations, I hope that something was learned from this blog post. And I pray other people who don't battle with the illness stop using other people current situation against them.
I'm depressed but I am not defeated. I've been dealing with depression since I was sexually assaulted in 2013. It started to become worse in 2016 and that's when I finally realized I had a problem. If your feeling depressed please talk to someone. If you need to talk to me, I am opened to listen. Submit a form at "My story".
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